Michel's Sharing

Mentor

2011-09-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

Okay, just for your information, I completed my internship or some say industrial attachment just not long ago. Instead of saying we go learn stuffs from there, I would probably say we go see things there. We have no responsibility to do anything there, it is like I will just have to go there see things as a third party, no, worse than third party, it is more like a non-related person.

However, I would like to thank an Resident Engineer from the Consultants. He started at my site almost the same time as me. He is not my field to be exact, he's an Electrical and Electronic Engineer, graduated from Monash University of Australia. He is brave for the truth and responsibility he held on. Another thing to mention is that he is really young to be an Resident Engineer. He is just 28 going to 29. Some more he is very good looking with a sense of fashion and humor. Sounds like he got a secret admirer? To me, I do not just admire him, I respect him and he is the example for me to follow, my mentor!

He taught me the reality in the industry. He taught me the discipline that we should have in our principle of life. He taught me to know where is our stand. He taught me to balance our works and plays. He taught me the art of communication. He taught me that the real lessons starts when we start to work. He taught me on the socials. He taught me the DO's and DON'Ts in the industry. He taught me lessons that I could never learn in lectures.

Maybe he did not know how grateful I am to him for all these!! I would still like to express my boundless gratitude and respect towards my Mentor, Eng. Law Eng Hong.

Teehee, Stupid Me~!

2011-09-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Actually I have so much to write on since the past few weeks, but the stupid lazy worm in me was just too influencing that causing me to lost update in this blog for almost a year now. So sorry to all my precious readers (in case there is any ><). However, just a quick update to those who knows me and reads my blog.

*I just finished my 10 weeks internship in Kuching.

*Enjoyed my 4 months time back in Kuching so much~~~

*My sister just got married on the 911.

*I got into a minor accident the Tuesday before I come back to uni.

*Yes, definitely I gained weight again for this holiday.

*I became darker.(however, many did not realise, I wonder why??)

*Currently in Parit King

*I just skipped the first week class (as usual~~)

*I got tons of mouse shit (literally) in my toilet and I just cleaned it whole heartedly last weekend.

*Unfortunately yes, I did not get what I want in the registration of my major.

I think that is the brief one on my current life, if I put more, I scared some of you might envy too much on my exotic, exciting, authentic, aesthetic, breath-holding, nerve-breaking life. (Do not ask what does these long, weird description means, I was just trying sounds more banana in my first blog update after so many months. I do not even know if they make sense?)

Till then~~~~~~

The last 3 days to go!

2011-01-02T12:07:00.000+08:00

Whether you want or not, the holiday has finally come to an end~ I'll be going back to Johor next Wednesday. I had so much fun hanging out with my friends in Kuching~ Rebecca, Hon Yun, Paul Ling, Patricia, Jen Hao, Swee Kee and all the others of the gang, thank you guys for the quality times we had. The barbeque, the countdowns and all the tea times. This is not something I can get or feel at there. I'll treasure it!!
In the mean time, I got to wish the very best to Jen Hao as he will be going back to Taiwan in the middle of this 2011!! It is indeed my pleasure to know him as my 1st Taiwanese friend and I'll treasure all those memories we spent together! May God bless you in your future undertakings and may your loveship with Jelly stays eternally!! All the best!!
Till then~

Another day to go..

2010-12-09T14:48:00.000+08:00

This is going to be my last day in Batu Pahat for this year!! Tomorrow I'll be going back to my sweet hometown to meet all my sweet family and friends. Although I have finished all my papers in final yesterday, I can hardly feel the excitement as I was expecting. Maybe I have got numb on these stuffs. Yesterday was quite a packed day. After the exam, most of us came back home to do some major cleaning that we had live for almost half a year. Since normally we do not really do the clean ups properly, it was quite time and energy consuming to make it really clean and shiny!! Lol.. However, the mood was spoiled a little when things were not carried as smooth as expected. Then, in a rush, we went for Kent's farewell dinner, and also a K-session at the midnight. Because there were too many of us, we could not enjoy the singing to the max(have to pass the mic around ma~~).

Anyway, I did some minor cleaning that I was not able to get done yesterday this morning, feels good that the whole house looks cleaner, going to spend my day in good mood and just enjoy my last moments here in 2010!!

By the way, again, Merry Christmas and an early Happy New Year!!!

Finally

2010-12-08T12:11:00.000+08:00

The time now is exactly 12.00pm and I'm going to be free from all those stresses and depression and going to enjoy my quality time with my families, friends, church pals and enjoy my Christmas celebration to the fullest!!! Haha.. Do I sound too excited? Actually I do not really have the mood to study for my final paper already. I know, this is not a good example, but, what can I do? Just can't help with it.

Anyway, tonight we are going for a farewell for Mr Kent Chang, who used to be my aiya Husband. He's finishing his final semester here, and will be leaving for his career back in KL. Though I did not really kept in touch with him this year(excuse: no transport and no more in the same house), he is still one of the person that I respect, in his attitude towards this Civil Engineering field and some aspects of life. He's certainly matured in thinking and rational. Maybe, sometimes too rational. This might be a way to protect himself ? Maybe? I'd prefer to be a little sentimental and passionate on things sometimes. Anyway, I'd wish you to have a bright future(of course your are going to have it, no doubt.) and more chances and luck in your future!! Fighting (I know you do not like this, but this is the Korean style of support)!!!

Just in case any of the Kuching friends who might read this, please prepare yourself for me, can't wait to go hangout with you guys!! YAY!!!

HOHOHOHOHO!!!! Merry Christmas!!! (I'm wearing red!!)

Blessings from JOHORE!!

Yesh!! It's exam time!!

2010-11-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

Finally this is going to come to an end, which means the holidays are going to start in no time!! Woohoo!! I have been away from my home for almost 5 and a half months already (which means I did not go back even for once in this whole 5 months), seriously, I am being homesick terribly now~~ Anyway, Can't wait to see m y beloved family in another 3 weeks time.

It's in another 4 days time to sit for my 1st paper, which is also the killer subject- Geotechnical Engineering, Trying to study hard for it, but seems to loss concentration all the time. Pray for me!! Hoping to get a better score this semester in order to pull up my CGPA. I can't manage to drop again this semester~

By the way, I would like to congrats to all my friends who has graduated not long ago, really hope that you guys can have a good choice of career and excel in it!! All the best!!

Not to forget that 2 of my best friends are getting married this coming 18 December, Daniel and Siew Hung, do not know if you guys will read this, but I sincerely wish your marriage the best from the bottom of my heart! May God bless your marriage and your going-to-build family!! Be sweet forever!!

Argh!!!

2010-10-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

This is the stage of final countdown for the sem already, 2 more weeks left and tons of work to be done yet my heart is still wandering around. I just do not know why the method of me handling stress is just let it go or being ignorant toward it. It is a kind of being escaping from the reality~~

A quick list of my job to be done:
1. Geofest analysis and reports,
2. 2 lab interviews and powerpoints.
3. 5 more tests.
4. hydrology project
5. Highway project slides and presentation.
6. Economy presentation.

All of this to be done in 2 weeks!!! Argh!! Michel Wong!! Please wake up and get your job done!!!

Just a simple posts..

2010-10-14T12:11:00.001+08:00

I did not post anything in this blog for almost 2months, It might sound long, but for me, it is extremely short. This semester is topugh and tiring semester. Not to say the packed daily routine, I am having too many subjects this semester which also cause me being stressed by heavy workloads. Almost every subject has projects and this semester, all the lecturers like to have tons of industial seminars to expose us to the real condition out there Though it was quite tiring, it is quite fun though.

Sushi King Bonanza is back!! Of course I wounld not miss the golden opportunity to fulll my tummy with all those unagi, ebi and salmons.. LOL, Please do not laugh at me since i can only afford to eat at Sushi King twice a year~ Anyway, I went twice with 2 different groups of friends till now. To me, going there to eat is not only because of sushi, it is also about having a deeper relationship with your friends by spending quality timeand momemnts to share about at that 1 hour. So I feels greater than anyone after the meals, not because of sushi but because our freindship has grown up to another stage!!

It's another 2 weeks left to my study week and another 2 weeks of holidays, I'm not going back this time as well as I might either work for 1 or 2 weeks or I'll let the fungi to grow over my body for 3 weeks. Lol.

Studies and Friends

2010-08-09T22:09:00.001+08:00

The test is near, I was still clear in mind that I must strive hard this semester in order to pull back my last semester's terrible result. Yet, once I stepped into my room, I'll go straight to my bed and start online(as my laptop is just in front of my bed, not a good position isn't it?). Facebook, Blog, MSN. and so forth. They are like a quick sand pulling me downward. The more I struggle, the faster I am going down.

Today, I decided to stay in the library to study and do my assignments, even though my friends broke their promise and ended up alone, but I insist to come, and yes, I finished my 1st assignment, and I can concentrate more in my studies as well. I manage to think clearer! At least this is a good start right? Hope that I could mange to come here as often as possible, but there comes an issue, I have no transport at night!! I can take the bus to come but I have to transport to go home unless I go back before 1030pm. Then it will be too short for me to study, and its kind of troublesome to borrow my friends car. sigh.. Just pray to the giving God then.

As I have mentioned before, I met some new friends, and I'm really happy and close to them. I'm hoping that we can really be some good friends and, to be honest, I had never had any other races' close friends. Its not that I am racist, I mix along well with them, but the type that really close and really caring for each other, none! Most of my gang or buddies are Chinese and I believe this time, I would like a breakthrough. To you guys out there, I am here and sincerely I want to be friends of yours!!

KKDK

2010-08-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

This is actually considered as my post on post-MHS 2. Since I met all these new friends from MHS, they were mostly from a club name KKDK- KElab Kaunseling dan Kerjaya. I was moved by their sportsmanship, their unity and their caring against one another. They call the member of the club as family and no kidding, they really treat each other like family. It's like you have a lots of sibling around your age!! That's what attracted me to join this club.

Last weekend was their first programme that I participated. It was in Mersing a camp being theme, 'kaunseling d'hati'. It was a programme to teach you an ethic and some principles on being a co-counsellor, since we are way too far from the qualification of being a counsellor. asically, everyone went there with different purpose and with different feelings. I was the only Chinese who went to this camp. If it was the old time, I would probably not even to consider to go. This time I went, just because I wanted to join them, I wanted to become one of them and i actually feel comfortable being among them. In the camp, I just have to say that, it has been quite some time that I have been this relax and had so much fun there!!

Last night, some one from the club started a wave of LOVE KKDK. He asked everyone to change their profile to the KKDK LOGO and guess what, in the time of 45 minutes, most of them that I know as already changed their profile picture. I was so impressed of their sportiness!!

This coming Saturday, I'm going to Muar for their programme in becoming a facilitator in a Chinese primary school. I'm looking forward to it!! KKDK, I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Updates!

2010-07-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

I'll try to update as much as possible in short!!
1. I had my dinner cooked almost everyday since last Tuesday! The dishes are simple but it still taste spectacularly nice, because I am the chef!!

2. Started my class for over 2 weeks now, still, kept falling asleep in class. Having a very tight schedule this semester, every morning start lectures at 8!!!

3. Just came back from CF camp in Melaka yesterday, an extraordinary experience. Bonded to God!! El-Sanctuary- a great place for church camps or personally devotion trip!!

4. Still facing some problem in various aspect, trying to cope with it.

5. Learning to surrender to God, to let God control and reign. Leave my burden to Him.

6. I gotta feeling this sem, is gonna be a busy sem!!!

POST- MHS

2010-07-14T11:42:00.000+08:00

After being busy as a MHS helper, finally I had settled down my new semester in UTHM. I was not able to online for the pass few weeks, so I couldn't share my feeling with you all. NO facebook, NO blog, NO msn!! What a life? But I lived it to the fullest!!
First, I wold like to say that being a MHS helper is super duper busy and you really have to give your 100% commitment to it, if not you'll not be able to strive that long and because everyone is giving their fullest commitment, we get to solves the problems, we worked as a team!! From there, a strong bond formed!! During the MHS, I can really feel what is 1 Malaysia, and I believe, if the whole country can really work like that without the boundary of races issue, we can be strong and we can be one of the first world country in the future!!
Anyway, I had so much fun in the whole programme, It was exhausting, tiring, I even got high blood pressure due to insufficient resting. I was shocked when my blood pressure goes up to 168/74. Luckily I'm still here, haha.. Anyway, in case you are concerned about me, I'm okay already right now!! I get to know so many new friends and I never regret for joining this. At here, I would like to thank all of you for giving me such a great experience and sweet memory!!
For me, the management for the whole MHS was quite a mess, although we were informed to be ready for unknowns, uncertainties, but I believe some of the problems we had for last few weeks could be avoided if the executives fully prepared and communications were efficiently done among them. In my opinion, the biggest problem we have there is only one-Communcation. Between the leaders, the bureaus and management. I think if we can cope well with this problem, the whole will be way much smoother!!
Now, about the new students, only a few lines for you guys, take things easily ok? You don have to finished everything in a day! Even the Rome was not built in a day. You still have plenty of time to settle your stuffs and we are always willing to help when you need it (reasonable one of course, cause some really gave ridiculous requests). Please bear in mind that you are here to study, not for vacation, so stop complaining!! If your complaints are reasonable, I can still accept, but stupid, unnecessary complaints please don tell me. I'm only a facilitator, not the chancellor.
I think I should stop here then!! Hope to give you more updates soon!!

MHS

2010-06-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

I'm backed!!! Backed to my university. Currently got involved in the orientation, in our uni it is also known as MHS-MInggu Haluan Siswa. We were required to come back 1 week before the actual orientation to give us some training, motivation and some mind setting as a preparation to the real challenge, although it didn't really work on me.
Anyway, I'm going to share some on what I did here and what I had here for this first day!! Basically I was late in the morning and as a punishment, I was required to do the duckling walking into the hall, it was really that embarrassing as you thought, cause there were quite a number of late comers. Then. in the afternoon, we played some 'motivation games' aka as some stupid games, but it was not so bad, cause we still need these as some sort of ice breaking. Guess what, in the game, I kissed a guy. It was so funny!! We did a lot of stupid movements and action and some weird partner dancing before we actually kissed each other. He was my friend actually, there was not any embarrassment between us, we played a lot through it as well. Oh ya, as a declaration, he kissed on my cheek and I kissed on his forehead, k? Do not think to far!! Lol!! Then the whole afternoon we were just playing some games blind folded trying to enhance us on following instruction from the superior and building some teamwork but still it did not work much on me as I had gone through this kind of activity to often already.
Anyway, that's all from me at the moment, got to prepare for tonight's programme!! If I have some free time then I might give you some quick update then!!

Almost to an end.

2010-06-13T15:21:00.002+08:00

For being unaware, I have spent my four weeks in Kuching already, and I only have another 2 weeks to be at here. I didn't manage to find any part time job in this long holiday, so my life is all around my family, friends and church.Till now, I could say the holiday was short but it is refreshing in a way that I rested my mind, my emotion and I didn't have to think much on the stresses and problems that I faced back in my campus. To be frank, I got to admit I felt my self so fake and I only manage to be myself here. Maybe this is the place I belong to and I long to be.
Felt kinda sleepy, didn't sleep well because was going to have some performance this morning at church. Anyway, felt great that we did it together in success. So I'm going to spend holiday to the fullest these two weeks. Until then....

A letter to My Dad

2010-06-11T01:53:00.004+08:00

Dear Daddy,
I'm writing to you this because I couldn't say to you in person and I'm not sure that you will be seeing this or not, but most probably not I think. Actually I have tons of word to say to you, but whenever I see you in face, I'm speechless. Maybe it's because you had never try to listen to me with your heart. Before I can finish my sentence, you interrupts, that's why I don't really feel like talking to you sometimes and I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one who felt this way.
I'm now writing this, it's not to blame you or what, its is just some words that I've kept in heart. Daddy, you are now exceeding 60, no matter you want or not, you have to admit that you are no more young, so please act according to your age. I know, it's our bad that we couldn't make you live well, and the housing loan is still burdening you. So sometimes, just let it go a bit. Don't be too stubborn, I know you have your pride but you may not always right.
I do not know whether you notice this, you are really terrible in socialising. You know why? It's because you never listen to others. Always try to put your feet in others shoes, it will do you good. In this world, you are not alone and you are not the king, no one had to bear with you when you were nothing. So, to survive, modest is the key.
Daddy, your children are all grown up now,even me the youngest child is already 22. You have watched us grew, you know who we are and we know too. We know what we are doing, we have our time, so please worry no more ok?
Daddy, please be nice to Mommy as she did her best to maintain the home. To me, you are so lucky to have her as your wife. Don't just look at the black dots on the whole white clothe. I don't know if you see it, but I bet all of us had witnessed her effort. Sometimes all you have to do is to listen what she says, give her praises and love her as how you were before our time. Heard that you ever left the house with Mommy for protecting her for some nonsense accuse against Mommy, where did those powerful love go. You are already 60+, so stop being manism and appreciate her for what she had done while you can because you were the one who chose her as your wife, so you have to be responsible for that.
Lastly, please don't take gold too important as they are many things that gold couldn't buy. Think before you act and act after you think. Every decision you made changes the future and shows who you are. Daddy, I Love You!!!!

Your son,
Michel

Dedication

2010-06-07T02:46:00.003+08:00

I would like to dedicate this post to some of my friends here. They are Rebecca, Paul, Tze Hui, Ryan Jen Hao, Daniel, Eddie, Danny and Shirley. Because of them, I had so much fun in this holiday, because of them, I felt warmth and comfort since when I just came back I felt awkward. It is also because of them, I had more memorable memories for this holiday. I really appreciate for what we had together, the fun, laughter, sarcasm, playing the pirate captain game, ghost story telling, tea times, learning the dance move of 'Beat it and Parapara Sakura' ,sing K till we lost our voices and it is precious to me as I came back only 3 times a year and everytime I come back , I had alway having the stranger feel, but you guys made it different this time. I ever read of a short message saying, 'Friends are like colour pencils, I might not your favourite colour, but I hope that you might need me somewhere to complete your picture.' So here I want to tell you guys that, you guys had made my picture for this holiday colourful, joyful and I'm sure it is going to be one of my masterpieces!!!!

Stary night

2010-05-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

It is yes , another starry night. The view that I had before my eyes was so unreal. As if I was high high above and surrounded by the stars. Had never seen this much stars at night before. Where am I? I'm outside of my house. Perhaps I took everything for granted that I did not even notice the hidden treasures before me. I had never knew that my house had such a great scenery at night. Sometimes exactly the same things happens in our life. If you can stop by and see things around you with a quiet heart, you might see things differently, you might find that things are more beautiful than before and more precious it could be.

New Hair!!

2010-05-23T17:13:00.003+08:00

Just had my hair cut today!!! Woohoo!!

Kinda like it!! Though I wouldn't set it that way everyday..

Kuching

2010-05-23T12:15:00.003+08:00

Finally, I'm back to my hometown-Kuching. It has been two years since I went to study in Johor. Every year I can only come back 2 or 3 times. Maybe it is the experience I went through, been out there, seen things differently from past. When I was out there, I misses here a lot, kept thinking how good would it be when I can be home at that instant. But when I am back here, I felt empty, feels that I am quite far apart from everyone else. We have been living in our own world for sometime, it's quite hard to catch up their thinking and to match up with them. Maybe that is growing up. That is the reason why adults kept talking about their old times. They have been there, done it, and could not turn back anymore. They misses their past , but they have got to keep moving on, and the past shall be the past, all you can do is to let go and keep it in heart as memories.
There was a saying goes, friends comes and go. For me, I think, friends come but they had never left you alone. They might be gone physically but they had their happy, sad, touching, crazy, wounded moments to be with you. It maybe pleasant or the other way round to you, but it is something as part of you when you keep moving on. It is the thing that resulted who we are today.

Homesick

2010-05-01T02:48:00.002+08:00

Every year's this time, I will miss my family badly. This year, as I'm having one week of geomatic survey camp, I'll only be able to go back on the 18/5. Means I still have to wait another 3 weeks before i can go back!! I missed everything in Kuching!! My home, my family, my niece and nephew, my bed, my friends, my church, my reverends, joys in fellowships!! Felt like just runaway back home and leave everything undone here. Maybe, men always like to escape from their responsibility as it burdens and sometimes it really leaves you breathless..

Today is 1/5, It's Labour day!! but, unfortunately, I'm a student, I'm not yet working so, I still need to study for my exam while others are having fun or relaxing during their holidays!! Anyway, who cares, After 3 more weeks, I'll be having 6 weeks of holidays!!! without money.. -_-"' The bad news is I could not get a part time job this holiday, so I'll be living pennyless like a beggar this holiday, keep getting money from parents.. Feels like I'm a parasite!! So I'll just pray that I'll be able to get a job when I go back!!

Useless

2010-05-01T02:34:00.003+08:00

I just remembered I wanted to write this, it happened 2 days ago, it was a Thursday. I have just finished my Maths paper and it was terrible, it was my only hope to get an A among the last few papers. I just do not like study for that whole day. Felt disappointed and fed up. I stayed in my room for the whole day, in dark!! My housemates thought I was sleeping, but i was actually staring at my laptop screen. A movie was played, but i did not know what was the story about. I din really watched it, I think it watched me more than I watch it. But I just do not know what to do, I just do not want to do or think of anything. Think back, it was a little bit scary, felt pointless.

Until the night, around 7 something, I came out of my room, I felt so weak, so dull. I went to the balcony to have some fresh air and I started to think what was I doing the whole day? Nothing!!! I got a feeling that if I continue to be like that, I'm going to get whatever mentally disorder it is, then finally kill myself!! Sometimes, emotion can really kills!! Hate that feeling!! and I pray that I would never do something like that again..

30/4/2010

2010-05-01T02:10:00.005+08:00

Today, I was waken up by my housemates during noon time. They ask me to go out for a movie! So we got ready by the fastest time we can and headed to BP Mall for the movie. We divided into 2 groups, some went for IRON MAN 2 and some went for IP MAN 2.. Lol.. For both of the movie, I did not watch the first episode. Anyway, I chose Iron Man 2 instead. The Movie was quite nice, though some say it was not up to expectation but it was ok for me, since I can't compare with the first episode of it, haha.. Next, I'm waiting for the movie 'The Last Airbender'!! Can't wait!! and yes, again I missed my movie, I wanted to watch 'The Clash Of Titans' so badly, yet, I kept pass by the chance to watch it!! Just hope the same thing would not happen to this movie!! p/s: If anyone of you have the movie, The Clash Of Titans, please borrow me ya!!

By the way, once we reach BP mall, we smelled something really really nice--- DURIAN!!! I'm definitely a Durian lover!! I haven't eat any durian for decades!! Instantly, I ask my friend to buy some and we share. So after movie, we really bought some back!! Spent RM 21 for it(total)!! We didn't know how to choose the durians, so we bought those which was packed in packs.

So that's how I spent my whole day!! Doing everything else but study!! >_-""

Final

2010-04-26T20:13:00.001+08:00

This semester, I'm having 5 3credits' subject. The coursework marks for the subjects finally came out this week. Unfortunately, my marks are averagely quite low. All my marks are around 30/50. That was not just happen to me, same things goes to my other friends as well. My classmates' coursework mark were all quite terrible this time, while other sections' students mostly get higher marks than we do. I was quite upset actually. I had already sit for 3 papers and another 3 to go. But frankly speaking, I do not really know how to answer last 3 papers. I know I have no reason to give any excuses saying the lecturers are not helping out because I know I was not really well prepared for the papers.

I'll be having Engineering Mathematics this coming Thursday and the hardest paper of all- Structural Analysis on Monday. Then all my classmates are going home since that will be their last paper. For me, I took a subject in advance, so my last paper falls on next Thursday!! Then I'll be FREE.... till 10/5/2010, I will need to attend a survey camp in Teluk Romania. To my Kuching friends, do not worry, I'll be heading home on the 18/5!! Don't miss me to much, k!!

Hope I can have fun in my upcoming events!! All the best ya!!

Jerk

2010-04-21T19:42:00.004+08:00

I am sorry but I really have say that he is such a jerk!! I know I should not be commenting on others or call people in such way, but he is just way too over!!
If you say, maybe you should just ignore him, don care about him, I did!! I try to avoid interfering with him at my best but he just cant leave me alone!! When I am focusing in doing my things, he came to disturb me. When I was playing or chatting with my friends, he came to interrupt.. and i really cant stand his bossy attitude, he has to get involved in everything, every matter is his matter!! If you know people who always had a lot of theory how he did this or why he did that, he is exactly that type!! When he lose on something, he will always say, 'I knew that I'm gonna lose, so I bla bla bla...' Why cant he just shut up his big mouth and doing things like everyone else is doing??
To that particular guy.
If no one is asking you question, please do not speak a word ok? you know why? because he is not asking you, why do you bother to answer?? and please do not over estimate yourself, because you are just so so!! One last sentence for you!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Minyak Beku

2010-04-17T21:14:00.012+08:00

Today, after around 2 hours of serious study, suddenly all my housemate felt like eating 'ais kacang' at Batu Pahat, then we straight away went to prepare ourselves for the 'ais kacang'. In such a coincidence, Ee Wen's JB friend came find her to go out, so we decided to go there together.

My 'dragon fruit taufufa' and I

This is the legendary 'dragon fruit taufufa'

'Mix fruit taufufa'

Ais kacang (warm)

Laici taufufa

Longan taufufa

Rojak

Fried rice with ham

Bak kut teh
(I ordered this bak kut teh because i haven eat it for quite some time d, and the waiter kept saying its very nice, in the end, i forgot that that was a vegetarian shop!! -_-"')

After we had our vegetarian high tea, they suggested to go to Pantai Minyak Beku to walk the 'Lover Bridge' and touch the lucky big fish. There was a lot of temple and they believe that by touching the fish's head will bring them luck, well that does not work on me, I touched it for fun.. hahaha. ^-^

That was the fish, there were around 5-6 fishes like this

This was a small kid we met there, both of us couldn't reach the fish and she said because I have short limps.. -_-''

The two person in white are Eewen's friends, the funny thing is, the guy stuck his feet in the water to touch the fish but got scolded by the green shirt little girl just now..

Prosperity!!!

A very cute little dog but..

While he was playing with the dog, the dog actually showed some 'Physical sexual reaction', does the guy look like a female dog??

Then, we went for the bridge, I think there's nothing special though. But the sun set was nice, too bad I did not take a photo on that. But we did do some stupid postures there.. ^^

In LOVE!!

Dragon Ball's technique.. Still remember??

We are engineers, so we even did some structure inspection on the bridge.. lol..

Group Photo

Last but not least, we went for dinner in Batu Pahat area.. At first, we went for a steamboat there, but it was fully booked, so we shift to the hawker centre. Just some photos..

Dinner time!!

the fried oyster.. aka 'o jian'

-The end!!-

Just Random.

2010-04-12T13:02:00.003+08:00

I have been doing nonsense without thinking about my studies for 2 days, and so here comes the very first day of study week and I slept till 1. Lol.. Can I really study in this study week? Or I'll just keep on being stupid the whole week and pray for pass during exam?? Really wish I could be the first person.
Anyway, today I'm going to plan for my schedule for study week and going to settle some problems in campus, I forgot to hand in my registration slip for my survey camp this coming 3rd sem. I totally forgotten bout it until my friend mentioned it. The faculty might fine me for that, but none of my friends knows the amount.
Since this is study week, many peninsular students went back to their hometown already, and the hostel or even the whole town look so dead, no more busy traffic, no more people walking or wandering around. I really wonder what will the town look like during our term break. Some of them said to me that the whole town is like a dead town, shops closes, even mamak stalls. I really do not want to stay for a short sem here.
I applied for the Gamuda Group's Scholarship (Gamuda is a very big construction company), and I really hope to get this scholarship, is not that I want the money, the amount is only slightly higher than PTPTN, maybe just RM500 more than the PTPTN. What I want is to have the chance to work inside after my graduation. Other than that, if I get the scholarship, I'll be able to move forward my short sem next year because you have to work for the company during your term break and they want to expose more sites and experience to you.If that works, I would be able to work as a official worker 2 months earlier!!
Besides that, I applied to become a orientation week helper, and I would like to experience something different from this. I have alwas wanted to help out the new comer, since I was one of them, I know how they feel when they are in a new place for the very first time alone. That was also the reason I went for the Students' Representative Council's election. Do not know whether have the chance to experience it or not. Leave it to God!!

Study week

2010-04-10T02:21:00.002+08:00

Wee, its study week again.. It means there will be no more assignments or reports and also means that the final is real near. I gotta focus real hard on my final this time. I do not beg to be in a dean list but at least give me some improvement on my CGPA.
For this sem, I'm really quite worried about my final. The ranking are as below. The 2nd runner up goes to.... Geology, the rockest of all. Then the 1st runner up goes to.... Hydraulic, you just cant catch waters, dont you? And finally the first place goes to ...... Structural analysis!! The hardest among all!! Haha, fear shall not stop me from being excel. I gonna strive hard and make sure I'll get my Gamuda scholarship as well!!!
For this weekend, I'm gonna play real hard and after that I'll study real hard for it!! All the best!!

My Essay Contribution For Gamuda Scholarship

2010-04-06T12:57:00.004+08:00

From the structures which are our basic needs in our life to the grandly built buildings as a sign of new breakthrough of technology and civilisation. It all started from one point, the centre of all- Civil Engineering.
Civil engineering is one important element in every development we are having now. From the physical development we see everyday, even structures as simple as a river bridge, there are none that are not related to civil engineering. I believe development begins from construction breakthrough. Only with these new construction technology, we are able to see all these skyscrapers, majestic structures.
I was not really into this profession in the beginning of my campus life, but after I have been exposed through syllabus and my fellow friends who have worked in the industry before, the magic of engineering started to amaze me , I felt curious on every happening and craves to know more and more about engineering. I started late and have less knowledge on civil engineering but I am now really into this field and tends to develope and gain my success in this field.
Besides that, me myself is a person who is trying hard to conserve our environment, not to say an environmentalist but i try my best to reduce the usage of polystyrene and plastic bags and so on. As an future engineer, I am so proud we also stands a role as the coordinator between human kind and nature environment. We are living in line with our nature, when nature ends, we ends as well. This is why we have been trying to conserve our nature and we merge in our construction engineering. Tools such as Green Building Index(GBI) or Green Mark are being imply in our construction. This shows the importance of conserving environment to engineering filed.
I believe I am ready to take the challenge which I might encounter in this field. I enjoyed developing my problem-solving ability and adapting knowledge to new and challenging situation beyond the cope of my coursework. Through engineering, I believe we can make this world a safer, better and a more exciting place.

So not you!!

2010-04-02T22:51:00.003+08:00

I do not know if you ever experience this, I have a very good friend which can be consider that we grew up together. We were not the type we stick to each other, and we have different interest but to me, I think we are close enough enough to be considered as best friends.
I used to think I know him well, and I thought I really understands him. I'm very close to his whole family, I even treat them as my family as well. But lately, due to some issues, he shared with me about his real feeling on certain issues, the issue is deeply related to us, it was the thing that make us known to each other, and everything we had. At the moment, I was stunt because he seems to be so not him. I do not even who he was. The way he express himself, the way he speaks is just not the way I could imagine. I felt that he was a stranger to me.
Maybe starting from the very first place, it was just me thinking how actually he was and what kind of person he was. It was me who though I know him well, maybe I know nothing about him!! God knows how I feel now..

Update!!

2010-04-02T00:17:00.001+08:00

Actually, I wanted to blog for a few times this week, but because of all the tests and assignments, I can hardly spare any free time for it. Thank God i have just finished my 3rd test this week just now and settled my assignments! Now, I have one more test to go on Monday, a presentation tomorrow and need to build a floating tower as a project. 20% o..
Anyway, to reward myself, this coming sat, I'm going to relax a bit at JB!! Lol.. Cant wait.. Just hope that I cant really enjoy myself there..
That's all for now then..

p/s: I really wonder why somebody just have to interfere others people life. Its not like things that I do or say have to do with them.Who are them to make me change!!

1/4/2010

2010-04-01T23:59:00.004+08:00

1200-0300 : Studying for Quiz.
0300-0700 : Sleeping
0700-0800 : Preparing to go class
0800-1000 : Quiz and CQI test 1
1000-1100 : Queuing for Printer Service (In the End: Printing Fail)
1100-0100 : Structural Analysis class
0100-0130 : Lunch
0130-0200 : Rush back to hostel to get the full report's soft copy
0200-0230 : Queuing for Printing Service Again!!
0230-0330 : Rushed to Presentation! (In the end, slideshow is not in compatibility mode, cancelled)
0330-0400 : Find officer at HEP, waited for 20 mins!!
0400-0700 : Just started my Geology revision, 5 chapters!!!
0700-0730 : Preparing for to go to campus for Geology test.
0730-0830 : Waiting for the test
0830-1015 : Test (forgot all my theories..)
1015-1130 : Limteh at Cafe
1130-1200 : Online + blogging

Langkawi!!

2010-03-27T00:27:00.006+08:00

Finally I have some spare time to update my Langkawi trip. The word Langkawi can be divided into 2 words- Lang and Kawi.. Lang means the eagle, and kawi means the land or the island. In whole it is the island of eagle!! Cool huh, we can really see some eagle there!! This is actually my first field trip and it is so fun!! The whole Langkawi is given the name Geopark. It means that the island's rock formation is various and it is believed that the islands contains of the whole Malaysia's rock type and formation!
With the Mahsuri's legend, ex Prime Minister, Tun Mahathir developed the island after the seventh generation of Mahsuri as what she had cursed before.. Its cool though, and the island really have lotsa legends and tales.!! Cool and mysterious place.
Here are some pictures!!

Doing Fieldwork and the middle woman is our funny lab technician..

Hooray!! Group Photo!!

This is the first place we went to after we reach Langkawi, even before we check-in. We went to this slope and start to do our field work, the view was great but the place in terribly HOT!!!

After that, we went for the cable car!! Langkawi's cable car has the biggest slope in South East Asia!!

This is our lecturer: En. Hazreek- Since he is teaching Geology, he claimed himself Mr Rocker
BTW, the view there was really awesome!!

This is the #rd Station of the cable car ride!! Some photo in the cable cars cannot be post here because i don wanna let you guys see me screaming, lol..

This is taken at the second station!! 600++ meter above main sea level.

After the cable car, we went for island hooping the next morning!! We are lucky to have a cool boat driver, because he speeds and drift at the sea!! lol..

Before departure..

The isle of Pregnant Maiden. Can you see it??

This is the lake at The Isle of Pregnant Maiden. The water there is 14m deep and it is pure water, it did not mixed with sea water around the isle.. That was Fei Jhue beside me, she is my coursemate and a langkawi resident o..

Because we had so much fun in the lake, we did not have enough time for the other islands.. and lost the chance to feed the eagle.. -_-"'..

Other than these, we spend 2 night drinking some alcoholic drink at the beach, since it was so cheap. The people there drinks beer at the price of cola.. RM 1.80 for a tin of Carlsberg.. I do not like beers, so I bought Kampai instead, blackcurrant flavoured. I bought many Nougats and a bottle of desert wine-Port for me to bring back to Kuching..

For more Pics, you can go to my facebook to view the photos, such as playing with rabbits, feeding deers and so on..

As a conclusion, I had tons of funs and excitement there but for the moment, I'm now extremely broke!! haha..

One Night

2010-03-24T02:47:00.003+08:00

This is one chilly starry night. I do not know what i am feeling now, it is so complicated and I do not know how to express myself. The night is colder than usual, as cold as my heart could be. It do not want to give any response for anything at this moment. It is just feeling like to stop for good. Being fed up in all the ups and downs. Being fed up for always be somebody else. Being fed up of sacrificing and holding too much. Maybe, letting go could be a good choice yet, it is so much easier to say.
Sometimes, by being alone makes you think. Think of things that seldom come to your mind, or maybe something you have been avoiding. It is the time now, the time to be face yourself. The time to see who wins in your heart. The time for you to be yourself. But can you still be yourself the next moment when you are in the crowd? Can you face everyone out there without your mask? Maybe this world is just a masquerade. Those with the best mask wins the attention and the king of the night.
So what can you do about surviving in this world. How long can you be true to yourself? How far can you walk?

Update!

2010-03-15T09:24:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Pulau Langkawi 4am this morning.. Its really tiring with the bus with no suspension and airconditioner. I was trying to catch up with my revision last night in bus, because the I'm having my test this afternoon which I havent touched my fingertips on it yet.. But because of all the shaking makes me dizzy, i read about 7 pages then i went to sleep d. lol..
I don have much time to write, cause I need to settle my tests and assignments first.. Maybe after a few days, I'll try to update my trip in langkawi!!

Birthday!!!

2010-03-01T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today, 1st of March, a memorable, special day to me.. My Birthday!! As there is increment with my ages, I do not really have much feeling on my birthday!! It is like no more big deal!!! I don't really care who will celebrate it for me. Even though it's your big day, sun still shines, earth still spins.
However, this year I celebrated with my 'Aiya Family' and friends here. Simple cake, simple celebration. They made a meaningful small booklet which touched me at that moment. It's simple but it shows their care and effort!! I'll treasure it till my very end!! Here goes a video clip on the cards they have made for me!! By the way, after you see the whole clips, a kind reminder that I'm not gay arh!!

I do not know what will happen in the future, but for this moment, I'll treasure every single moment, every memory with you guys!! After two years, we might all run for our own life and the path might not intersect. we might not be seeing each other, but this period of campus life are different with you guys!! Thank you for everything!!

Lao Sheng? 捞生!!

2010-02-25T00:22:00.007+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!! Today my 'Uni Family' and 'neighbours' celebrated Chinese New Year by doing Lao Sheng!! I'm from Sarawak and Sarawakians do not really do this Lao Sheng. This is my second time doing it, and I think its quite fun doing it actually. Its not the food that is nice, but its the fun time you spend with your friends and family!!

My housemate and I

We spent some time sharing foods we brought from our home town. guess what, My very first time giving angpao.Though its just giving it for fun.. To my daughters..

Giving AngPaos

But instead, look what they do??

they give it back to us in another angpao, that is my aiya husband.. lol!!

So basically we had quite some fun tonight, below are some extra pictures..

Youngest daughter and I

These are our friends and families!!

My whole 'Aiya Family'

Celebration

2010-02-14T15:35:00.002+08:00

I do not really know how to explain the feeling I felt moments ago. During the Chinese New Year we are having, all our family should have came back to celebrate it together, eating reunion dinner, spending times together and so did we, but when we came back, are we coming back because we really wanna spend some time with our parents, or we just do it because we do it every year.
When they come back, they are more like guests and come visit parent like how we visit friends and other realtives. No much different actually. Though to parents, they are way more happy to see everyone gather around, maybe that's more important. With all the grandchildren and laughters. But I really do not why I have the feel of pathetic being so fake. Maybe that's the adult's world that I have avoiding to mix in.
Anyway, it's new year and I would still try my best to have fun. Gotta sit for my hardest paper the next day I reach my Uni. Gotta give it a shot!!

Home

2010-02-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

I came back 2 days ago, felt so familiar with everything. Felt so happy and just enjoy with everything. You can just sitting there whole night doing nothing looking at the starry starry night.
Maybe that's why we call it a home. You feel secure and peace. It just that simple.
Of course there are certain cases where they feel burden with their family or home, but I believe that since we are born in it, we live with it. Since we cant change the fact, we cant avoid it, why not we just accept it. Maybe when we see it from a different angle, we might like it??
Anyway,just treasure your home while you can.

Sincere

2010-02-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

I myself is quite a emotional person, I can easily get offended, and emotionally fluctuates but i seldom quarrel with them, I'll just remain silence and avoid talking to them in a period of time. My friend noticed this problem as well, but they never say anything in front of me.
Today, one of them talk to me about this problem, and he knows well why am I behaving like this, because I'm depending on friends, I expect them to be a good friend of mine, but they are just not the type that can be what I wanted, and my friend said to me not to look to deep inside. Sometimes we'll just have to closed an eye and pretend that we don see anything.
I believe he said that in sincere, I'll take it as a sincere advice, and I promise to try my best to change for good.

Soon

2010-02-06T01:03:00.002+08:00

Soon, very soon, as soon as 3 more days, I'll be going back to my hometown- Kuching getting ready to celebrate Chinese new year.. Can't wait it. Gonna meet my parents, siblings, niece and nephew!!
Hooray!! To you who is reading this blog, wish you a very blessed Chinese New Year, may you have a blessed year a head. Since everyonelike to prosper so much, I also you a prosperity new year!!
Lately, my housemates kept listening to some of my favourite korean song, thay say its influence by me.. lol.. Quite happy though, at least they do not criticizing me listening to weird songs.. I do not know why, I just love those songs. SNSD, Wondergirls, Bigbang, SuperJunior. I just love them.
Just now, a friend of mine told me that another friend of mine is pregnant.. Woohooo, Congrats to her and her husband, I bet she's been waiting for this!! May God blessed them.
Now, gotta go to sleep.. Nites..

Finally!!

2010-02-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

Today, I sat for my last test paper before Chinese New Year. Though I don really think I scored well, I still feel relieved a lot. Yet, I still have tons of assignment need to be rushed, unless I wanna spend my CNY doing assignment at home.. LOL.. Can't even imagine that. Besides that, I still have another paper after CNY, one of the killer- Hydraulic. Gonna prepare for it.
Anyway, today I promised a tuition centre to be a tutor there. Teaching form4 English. Felt like an unseen responsible and burden fell on me. But the pay is quite ok though. Every students, I'm taking 45% of their tuition fee. At the moment, I have 6 students, so my pay is around RM100 per month. I'll be teaching once a week, 2 two hours each time. Consider ok, right??
Anyway, its a big challenge for m, since form 4 English's scope is quite wide. So needa prepare for it..All the best!!

My first Safety Helmet!!

2010-02-03T00:46:00.003+08:00

Finally I got my first safety helmet. After I git the green card, I was waiting for such a long time to get it!! Felt kinda excited when i saw it on my table.. Straight away i took a few pic of it.
Of course also pics of me wearing it!!

Do look like an engineer??? LOL!!!

First day

2010-02-01T08:02:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day of February. Time flies, as if it was just yesterday that I've just came back my hometown in the December. This week, I'm going to have a lotsa tests and quizzes. Gonna be a very busy week. But guess what, next Tuesday I'm going to the flight to go back to my hometown, getting ready to celebrate Chinese New Year. Hooray!! Gonna enjoy the short holiday, cuz I might not be able to go back during the sem break in May. Gonna Have short sem in uni. Anyway, you wouldnt know wat you need or you care untill its no more around you!! Appreciate it!!

Done

2010-01-31T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today I had finally finished my job as a Mc.. Overall it was quite messy. Because they keep change this and change that, And in the end I couldnt speak fluently when I was nervous. But afterall, I have tried my best. I tried my very big effort to prepare for it. I'm happy with what I did, and feel proud of it!!
Thank God for the leading. A big Thank you to everyone who has supported me!! Now I got to get back to my revision for tomorrow's test.

Rave

2010-01-30T19:08:00.003+08:00

Today I went out to Summit with my daughters, as what I had expected, we went crazy doing stupid stuffs in the public.
I do not know why, when I'm with them I'm so easily to be myself. I don care how the others look at me, I can do a lot of stupid stuff, as long as they smiled, laughed. When I'm with my other friends, they are just so serious, when i do stupid stuff, they look at me differently, they felt embarrassed.. I think when we are still young, we should just be crazy every once a while. Or maybe when I'm with them, I felt respected. I enjoy being treated with respect.. LOL..
But I spent whole day without a touch of my study. Feel kinda ashamed of it.. Gotta catch up tomorrow..

Friday

2010-01-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

After spending the whole afternoon sleeping, I realised I'm really worked out.. Not to say physically exhausted, but mentally stressed. After I woke up, i found out I'm almost late for my opening ceremony rehearsal.
Anyway, speaking of my first time being a formal MC. I'm quite nervous now, it's on this Sunday afternoon, in the public, outside of BP mall. Having YB as VVIP. I'm quite anxious bout it.
I have been practising my script for a day, but when I'm nervous I still get stuck halfway.. Just hope this situation wouldnt be happening that day.
Tomorrow, my daughters are asking me to go play in Summit, I feel like going, because with them i can be myself, need not to cover up. Yet, I needa prepare for my tests next week. Really hard to decide. So everything depends on my mood tomorrow..

Escape

2010-01-29T10:43:00.003+08:00

Today, I escaped my class for the very first time these 4 semesters (not to include those not compulsory classes of course). I was so sleepy just now in my first class at 8, and it was a very full week for me ahead. I'll be having 2 tests on Mon, another killing subject's test on Tues, and one last paper on Thurs. Out of these 4, 3 are 3credits subject. I didnt noe why I made the decision to take 5 3 credits subjects this sem.
Now come back to my case, time is so little yet things to be done way more. I escaped my class today, but the real thing, I wish I could escape from all this fuss.. But there's no way right. No matter what you do, no matter where you go, as long as you are living around people, the fuss will follow you like the DiGi coverage.LOL..
This weekend I needa become the MC for the opening ceremony of Engi Fest. I'm quite nervous though, since this is my first time being a formal MC.. All that I can do is to pray hard and work hard!!

Friends

2010-01-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

I do not know what does friends means to you. For me, I used to be very dependent on friends. Every time when I wanted to do something, the first thing I ask was "Who else going?". It's like i couldn't do anything without a friend. I used to think that when I treated you as a really good friend, with my whole-hearted, I thought that person will also treat me the way I did. But unfortunately he cant do that, because he's just isnt you.
That's why now, I've learnt to be more independent in friendship. Sometimes, I would rather treat them as passersby instead having weighed too much in my heart. Maybe this is just one of the way I protect myself.
Anyway, no matter how a friend is important to you (or the other way round), they are someone that might change your life. Everyone in your life contributed who you are today. you like it o not, they are the one who mold you.
However, Great Friends bring Great time!!

Mourn

2010-01-26T10:39:00.002+08:00

Johor state's Sultan passed away last Friday, the state government encourage everyone to wear a black strip on the left arm for non-Muslim and songkok with white strip or white head scarf for muslims as a kind of mourning feature for the death of Sultan. Although the newspaper has revealed that it is not compulsory to do this mourning thingy, yet our university forced us to do it. by saying that those who do not follow this instruction shall not come into the university compound. Isn't it ridiculous?? In my point of view, if they do not force us to wear, I'm sure no one will wear these. Indirectly, this will show that the Sultan wasnt important in our heart, and we dont take an effort to mourn for his death. As what the politics has alway been doing, show the positive side, so they have to make sure at least some one wears it. Isnt it pathetic??
Same goes to those campaign, they always like to organize this awareness campaign and that awareness campaign. I don know if you guys realised, representative who were sent to these campaign are all those who do not need it. eg, ANTI SMOKING CAMPAIGN, they sent those top students in class who do even touch a cigaratte to these campaigns telling them the harms of smoking, maling big articles in newspaper. How about those who had been smoking, which group of people need this more??
Let them think about it on their own..

Life

2010-01-25T10:14:00.000+08:00

I think life in university is like we had already stepped out halfway to society. We see different things, different people, facing critical situations. Isnt that the life we are going to have after we finish our degree in the future.
Even for now, I have starting to feel tired and a little fed up by keep doing things like this. I don really know how am I going to be when I'm in the society in the future. I don dare to think, cant imagine, praying that I'll have the wisdom and strength to handle those things..

Frust

2010-01-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

Lately I'm really kinda frustrated for so many things happened in one time. I'm trying to make myself calm down and think, trying not to let my emotion to affect my rationality. This is really challenging my EQ.
Test is coming soon and I haven start to prepare for it. Knowing that my result is not as good as others, I had promised myself and God that I will try my best in both my Academic and CF, that is also the reason why i want to sell out my photocopy shop. Now I really don know whether i can keep it going by being situated in all these mess.. Just hope that i can clear up the mess as soon as possible..

Random

2010-01-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

I have not been posting anything here for the last few months.. Maybe I've just lost the passion of blogging. Saw a blog from a friend of mine, though we are not close or we had never spoke to one another, connected by leaving comments, but his blog reminds me that I din write for a while. So here I am, visiting my blog, knowing that besides me, no one will actually come and read this.
Anyway, lately many things happened, I was letting out my Photocopy and Printing shop in my hostel, doing all the procedures, persuading all the shareholders to sell. Through this and that, one thing that I've found on human is that everyone is doing things for the best benefits, especially dealings on money. They planned deep in their heart on how can they gain the best. Even if they have to deny what they had promise before to you.
Am I too naive that believing that this world is still consisting good, trustworthy people?? Sometimes I feel like I do not know the world that I'm living in all this while. Everything seems to be changing too fast, or I'm changing too slow.
I think I'll need quite some time before I will continue to do another business. Money is desire, it's a temptation, it is also destroyer of conscientious, a disaster.

Morality

2009-09-12T12:23:00.001+08:00

Do not worry, I am not going to teach Moral Studies. Lately, I have been asking people's opinion on sex befoer marriage or immarital sex conduct. Supprisingly most of my friends do not resist of having it. Depends on situation they are having that time. They actually agree to do it. Some even had already done it, not just once but hundred times.. Only now then realise, I have been undercover in my 'World'. I used to think that Malaysia is still considered as a conservative country (in terms of moral), now, I have to reconsider this statement.
I have been thinking, am I going to be like them next time. Is my surrounding evolving to fast or I am the one changing too slow?? These change seems to making me feel this is so not my world.

It's been a while!!

2009-08-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since my last post!! I do not know whether I have nothing to post or I am lazy to post. But one thing for sure, I am not that convenient to online already- I lost my laptop. Yet, I am not going to talk about that in this post.
To be frank I am not really sure what I want to post, it's just a random post. After I lost my laptop, I lost my all of my entertainment at once, assignments cannot be done on time unless borrow laptop from my friend, but in the other point of view I had more time to study, which I am quite greatful on.
I had my tests on the last few days, I did not really work extreme hard for it, but comparing to before I paid more effort, I just want to try my best and see if i can score well as others. So far, few of the subjects showed improvements and I really hope this continues(I am not sure whether I can maintain?!)
In general, I spent my last week in quite a pack timetable. Wish me luck and all the best to me..

What's The Point??!!

2009-04-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

In my list of subject that will be examine in my Final includes two University Subject- Ethnics Relation and Nationalism. I have just finished both papers. Both of these papers are in MCQ(multiple choice question) format. It was supposed to be easy for us because its repeating almost the same in our History(secondary school) and Pengajian Am(Form6). The only difference is the context they express.
Yet, when we went the Ethnics relation paper, we found out this paper is meaningless. It is not examining our understanding or our knowledge on our country but it is testing how goood is our Bahasa Malaysia. In the choices given in questions, almost each and every one of them shares the same meaning or shares the same purpose or objectives. I have known that politics is all about how they play with wordings and communication techniques, but I did not know that so is our study.
What's the point of letting us to study these subjects yet they are only testing on the terms and how they explain their 'theories'? For different people reading the same sentence might give different interpretation on the sentence. Why are they expecting us to have exactly the same views as they have? We are human beings created by God with our sense, rational, and right of choosing. Not just some cold-blooded, expressionless programmed machines or robort!!
I really think that our Ministry of Education or Ministry of Higher Education should think back the objectives of existing these subjects and are the objectives being fulfilled with the teaching strategy and teaching system or even the syllabus.
Again, WHAT'S THE POINT?!!

'Final' 's Diary..

2009-04-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

Lately, I was quite terrified by my result this semester, especially my mathematics. To be frank, I was not really gifted in these numbering and algebra thing. Yet I stayed in field related to mathematics till now. I hate mathematics since my form 4, now I'm still taking Civil Engineering. I tried to change my field to education stream but God did not let me to do so, He put me in Civil in an unknown University called UTHM.

Back to my mathematic result, I failed in my first test by getting 5 over 15( this is the lowest mark I ever get). I almost failed in my second test with the result 10.5 over 20. This result the carry mark for my mathematics goes down to 28 over 50. This means that I have to get full mark in my final exam in order to score a B or B+ in my result(which is quite impossible for me).

This semester is considered quite lucky because I only have two difficult subject- Fluid Mechanics(3 credits) and Mathematics(3 credit). based on the carry mark I have now, I have to score in Fluid Mechanics and other subjects in order to increase my CGPA to 3.5 and above. It is quite tough for me. All that I can do is keep study but whenever I think of Mathematics, my heartbeat beated rapidly like I could not focus in it. Maybe it is because of the result that I got causing me to have phobia towards it. That is exactly the same thing happened to me during my 2nd test, I was prepared but when I stepped into the exam hall, i cant feel my brain anymore ununiformed heart beat.

O Lord, teach me not to fear, show my way ahead. Nothing us impossible in You!!!

Valentine...

2009-02-20T12:37:00.000+08:00

Normally people remember Valentine that falls on 14th of February. In Chinese Lunar calender, we also have Valentine's day, it falls on the 15th day of Chinese New Year.

You might wonder why I'm telling this, some of you might also think that why am I telling somethinng that you knew already. If you ever read one of my post in friendster's blog last year end entitled 'feeling happy or sad', I'm continueing to share more feelings on that topic.

Apparently, I have some so called caring friends who are quite 'caring' in my feeling towards that girl. During the Chap Goh Mei (equivalent to the Chinese Valentine's Day), they used my handphone to send a message to wish her a happy festival (I'll consider that is my 1st message with her), the thing is she never knew that was my number (we had never contact aside from noding head or smiling to each other when we sees each other), I had to explain to her that it was my friend who sent that message. Things end here until on the western Valentine's Day, my roommate sent another message to her (my handphone of course), guess what did she reply, she asked who am I for the second time ( it was quite hurting though), then I was so panic till don not know what excuse should I give her, so I simply say I sent to the wrong recipients.

Ever since I felt like she is kind of avoiding me ( maybe it is only my wrong perception), it is even more freaking me out.. Even myself feels that I am such a coward!!
Its just a pretty coincidence that both my first and second time messaging her fell on both oriental and western Valentine's Day. Will I have something more to share on this? Hope so..

Like it o Not???

2009-02-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

Sometimes life is really full of excitement, enchantment, surprise and joy.. Yet sometimes it is very disappointing, sorrowful and blue.. It is like it's making you love it yet hate it.
For me, I'm a very sensitive guy ( some say emotional ), my feeling changes very fast, I hate it when people giving me hope, then say no to me. I'm not blaming them, just that I do not like the feeling thrown from heaven to earth ( not to say as serious as hell ). They have their rights choosing what they want, that's a fact and it's something shall not change. If they have to sacrifice their will just to make me not angry, that's something that I do not want either..
Oh... life is so troublesome and .. do not knowhow to describe it!!!

Student Representative Council...?!

2009-01-10T11:21:00.000+08:00

With God's grace,I was nominated to be a candidate in the election of Students Representative Council. I was quite scared though, I just came to this university for half a year, to be frank, I know very little about my university. I was placed in the Kawasan Umum ( public chair ), in our university's history, there has never been a chinese won in this chair, yet, this year we had 16 candidates fighting over 7 chairs!!! Tough fight!!
What I am touched is that all of my friends really supported me. I never thought that they would sacrifice their time for me. They helped me to hang my posters up late till 2 or 3 o' clock in the morning and one of them was going to have class at 8!! I was reli touched!! I see their carings!! I was quite tired at that period of time because of all the preparations and campaigns, my friends had been always asking me to take rest..
Now the election is over, as predicted, I lost.. Yup!! I lost in the election but I won something more precious.. My friendships!!!

Doulos in Kuching!!!

2008-12-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

Yup, I'm so grateful that i get to become a volunteer in the oldest sailing ship in the world- DOULOS
Doulos is a Greek word means servant. It is just two years younger than the Titanic!!! Wow!! That's really old right!! When they built Titanic, they say," Not even God can sink this ship," but, those who built Doulos said," With God's grace, this ship will sail." Guess what? Titanic sank in its first voyage..
Doulos is now going all over the world since 30 years ago as a floating bookstore, and as the largest floating bookstore in the world, it contains of about 8000 different titles of book and about 350 crews from about 50 countries!!! The crews working inside do not have any salary, they are all volunterrs and they pays to Doulos every months. The rates depends on the church growth and the economy of that country.. Yup, I think that explains a little about Doulos.. If you are in Kuching, do not forget to visit it!!
Now, it is back in Kuching after 7 years, I went there once when I was 13, I can barely have any memories of it, but now I'll never forget my experience in Doulos for my lifetime!!! I'll share more of my life in Doulos in my next blog. Thanks for viewing my blog anyway!!