Celebration

I do not really know how to explain the feeling I felt moments ago. During the Chinese New Year we are having, all our family should have came back to celebrate it together, eating reunion dinner, spending times together and so did we, but when we came back, are we coming back because we really wanna spend some time with our parents, or we just do it because we do it every year.
When they come back, they are more like guests and come visit parent like how we visit friends and other realtives. No much different actually. Though to parents, they are way more happy to see everyone gather around, maybe that's more important. With all the grandchildren and laughters. But I really do not why I have the feel of pathetic being so fake. Maybe that's the adult's world that I have avoiding to mix in.
Anyway, it's new year and I would still try my best to have fun. Gotta sit for my hardest paper the next day I reach my Uni. Gotta give it a shot!!