Morality

Do not worry, I am not going to teach Moral Studies. Lately, I have been asking people's opinion on sex befoer marriage or immarital sex conduct. Supprisingly most of my friends do not resist of having it. Depends on situation they are having that time. They actually agree to do it. Some even had already done it, not just once but hundred times.. Only now then realise, I have been undercover in my 'World'. I used to think that Malaysia is still considered as a conservative country (in terms of moral), now, I have to reconsider this statement.
I have been thinking, am I going to be like them next time. Is my surrounding evolving to fast or I am the one changing too slow?? These change seems to making me feel this is so not my world.

It's been a while!!

It's been awhile since my last post!! I do not know whether I have nothing to post or I am lazy to post. But one thing for sure, I am not that convenient to online already- I lost my laptop. Yet, I am not going to talk about that in this post.
To be frank I am not really sure what I want to post, it's just a random post. After I lost my laptop, I lost my all of my entertainment at once, assignments cannot be done on time unless borrow laptop from my friend, but in the other point of view I had more time to study, which I am quite greatful on.
I had my tests on the last few days, I did not really work extreme hard for it, but comparing to before I paid more effort, I just want to try my best and see if i can score well as others. So far, few of the subjects showed improvements and I really hope this continues(I am not sure whether I can maintain?!)
In general, I spent my last week in quite a pack timetable. Wish me luck and all the best to me..

What's The Point??!!

In my list of subject that will be examine in my Final includes two University Subject- Ethnics Relation and Nationalism. I have just finished both papers. Both of these papers are in MCQ(multiple choice question) format. It was supposed to be easy for us because its repeating almost the same in our History(secondary school) and Pengajian Am(Form6). The only difference is the context they express.
Yet, when we went the Ethnics relation paper, we found out this paper is meaningless. It is not examining our understanding or our knowledge on our country but it is testing how goood is our Bahasa Malaysia. In the choices given in questions, almost each and every one of them shares the same meaning or shares the same purpose or objectives. I have known that politics is all about how they play with wordings and communication techniques, but I did not know that so is our study.
What's the point of letting us to study these subjects yet they are only testing on the terms and how they explain their 'theories'? For different people reading the same sentence might give different interpretation on the sentence. Why are they expecting us to have exactly the same views as they have? We are human beings created by God with our sense, rational, and right of choosing. Not just some cold-blooded, expressionless programmed machines or robort!!
I really think that our Ministry of Education or Ministry of Higher Education should think back the objectives of existing these subjects and are the objectives being fulfilled with the teaching strategy and teaching system or even the syllabus.
Again, WHAT'S THE POINT?!!

'Final' 's Diary..

Lately, I was quite terrified by my result this semester, especially my mathematics. To be frank, I was not really gifted in these numbering and algebra thing. Yet I stayed in field related to mathematics till now. I hate mathematics since my form 4, now I'm still taking Civil Engineering. I tried to change my field to education stream but God did not let me to do so, He put me in Civil in an unknown University called UTHM.

Back to my mathematic result, I failed in my first test by getting 5 over 15( this is the lowest mark I ever get). I almost failed in my second test with the result 10.5 over 20. This result the carry mark for my mathematics goes down to 28 over 50. This means that I have to get full mark in my final exam in order to score a B or B+ in my result(which is quite impossible for me).

This semester is considered quite lucky because I only have two difficult subject- Fluid Mechanics(3 credits) and Mathematics(3 credit). based on the carry mark I have now, I have to score in Fluid Mechanics and other subjects in order to increase my CGPA to 3.5 and above. It is quite tough for me. All that I can do is keep study but whenever I think of Mathematics, my heartbeat beated rapidly like I could not focus in it. Maybe it is because of the result that I got causing me to have phobia towards it. That is exactly the same thing happened to me during my 2nd test, I was prepared but when I stepped into the exam hall, i cant feel my brain anymore ununiformed heart beat.

O Lord, teach me not to fear, show my way ahead. Nothing us impossible in You!!!

Valentine...

Normally people remember Valentine that falls on 14th of February. In Chinese Lunar calender, we also have Valentine's day, it falls on the 15th day of Chinese New Year.

You might wonder why I'm telling this, some of you might also think that why am I telling somethinng that you knew already. If you ever read one of my post in friendster's blog last year end entitled 'feeling happy or sad', I'm continueing to share more feelings on that topic.

Apparently, I have some so called caring friends who are quite 'caring' in my feeling towards that girl. During the Chap Goh Mei (equivalent to the Chinese Valentine's Day), they used my handphone to send a message to wish her a happy festival (I'll consider that is my 1st message with her), the thing is she never knew that was my number (we had never contact aside from noding head or smiling to each other when we sees each other), I had to explain to her that it was my friend who sent that message. Things end here until on the western Valentine's Day, my roommate sent another message to her (my handphone of course), guess what did she reply, she asked who am I for the second time ( it was quite hurting though), then I was so panic till don not know what excuse should I give her, so I simply say I sent to the wrong recipients.

Ever since I felt like she is kind of avoiding me ( maybe it is only my wrong perception), it is even more freaking me out.. Even myself feels that I am such a coward!!
Its just a pretty coincidence that both my first and second time messaging her fell on both oriental and western Valentine's Day. Will I have something more to share on this? Hope so..

Like it o Not???

Sometimes life is really full of excitement, enchantment, surprise and joy.. Yet sometimes it is very disappointing, sorrowful and blue.. It is like it's making you love it yet hate it.
For me, I'm a very sensitive guy ( some say emotional ), my feeling changes very fast, I hate it when people giving me hope, then say no to me. I'm not blaming them, just that I do not like the feeling thrown from heaven to earth ( not to say as serious as hell ). They have their rights choosing what they want, that's a fact and it's something shall not change. If they have to sacrifice their will just to make me not angry, that's something that I do not want either..
Oh... life is so troublesome and .. do not knowhow to describe it!!!

Student Representative Council...?!

With God's grace,I was nominated to be a candidate in the election of Students Representative Council. I was quite scared though, I just came to this university for half a year, to be frank, I know very little about my university. I was placed in the Kawasan Umum ( public chair ), in our university's history, there has never been a chinese won in this chair, yet, this year we had 16 candidates fighting over 7 chairs!!! Tough fight!!
What I am touched is that all of my friends really supported me. I never thought that they would sacrifice their time for me. They helped me to hang my posters up late till 2 or 3 o' clock in the morning and one of them was going to have class at 8!! I was reli touched!! I see their carings!! I was quite tired at that period of time because of all the preparations and campaigns, my friends had been always asking me to take rest..
Now the election is over, as predicted, I lost.. Yup!! I lost in the election but I won something more precious.. My friendships!!!